Im not going to lie, especially in my own blog. It's so easy to always ask ourselves "Why me? Why now? and How can I change everything. These are horrible questions that literally drive me batty. I know for a fact we are never given more then we can handle. I look, listen and think about all those around me and the things that they endure. Im constantly in aww... and inspired to keep pushing on. My mother is in constant pain do to her diabetes, my sweet older sister is a struggling single mom trying to manage life being unemployed and provide her daughters with the best possible life, my twin sister who is running in five hundred directions with five kids and despite what she wants to do for herself she is always thinking about her family. I draw strength from my friends too.........I have one who spends alot of time alone because her husband is deployed and she is so selfless and giving and keeps trucking through each day. So where am I going with this......well it just makes me think what others see when they look at me. Are they things that I want others to see. I have battled depression and anxiety for a long time. I have gone through spurts of time when Im completely unaffected..........but unfortunately things never stay unaffected for me. My cup will empty and I feel good....then it will slowly feel up till it over flows. The over flow is not a fun place, one I wish I could just run away from everyone so know one sees me. But the truth is I need everyone, I would never beable to do this alone. Thank you to everyone who listens to me cry, doesn't judge me just loves me for me and most of all your examples of seeing the joy in life. Truely our purpose in life is to feel joy not to let our trials destroy our feeling of joy. Im thankful for my fighting spirit that I have been given and of course for my knowledge of the gospel of Jesus Christ.
Okay now I need to go and kill a flying bug that has hit my computer twice while writing this post. love to all