Do you ever feel like your dreaming?

I have very much felt like I have been dreaming since we arrived in Hawaii. Im not exactly sure why or what it is that makes me feel like this. I like it here, Im not sad that Im here although I do miss everyone and the thought that I can't just get in the car and drive to visit anyone is hard for me. So it's been a month.. that we arrived here on the island. Slowly but surely we are trying to rebuild our daily routine. It will really help when we get our furniture and other personnal belongings this Friday. I was so happy today when we pick up our van from the ship yard, it was like seeing an old friend. It felt good driving it and being able to put on High school musical for Lucy. I think I might have woke up from a dream for a minute.
Then all I remember next is Jeremy sayng " I can't believe that just happened!",
I looked in the rear veiw mirror and said "Oh my gosh did we just get hit?" Jeremy said "UH Yeah". All I saw was the broken glass. I was driving on the hignway in the commute traffic and at the time of impact I was pretty much stopped. I think I suffered a pretty good case of wip flash.....judging by the conversation. Luckily besides high blood pressure and a little pain in our necks we are all fine. Maybe the next time I wake up from my dream it wont be so dramatic.


The man that hit us was in his work truck, I feel bad for him he probably will loose his job. With the way the economy is, I can't imagine what he is going through tonight.

Some Fun at Kaneohe Bay

Well here is my first official slide show in Hawaii. There is a picture of our new house too, plus the car we are trying to buy still. Today we went to the Marine Base with some people Jeremy knew from Monterey. It was fun, I would have to say the the waves were a little bigger then what I like (although Im a ocean wimp). Jeremy was loving it, he was catching some great waves that were big and carried him for a long time. Lucy actually played in the waves for the first time, she loved it and it was fun to watch. I love watching the kids just laugh and play in the water. Kya actually will lay down and let the waves throw him all around. We were all such sandy messes when we left there to go home but it was worth it.

Wow this was a long day for me

The only reason it was really a long day was because I didn't have anything to do. We still dont have our belongings with us, which really makes it difficult to keep yourself busy. Yesterday I did what chores I could find to do....laundry, dishes, a little vacuming, bathrooms. So that left pretty much nothing for me to do today. Needless to say I was excited to go to the bus stop at 2:10pm to get the kids. Although I see the bus coming and then my phone rings, and the school calls to tell me that Lucy has missed the bus again. Sure enough the bus pulls up and I see Kya in there mouthing the words " Mommy the bus left without Lucy again ". He is such an observant brother. It turns out that the sister of Lucy's bus buddy was late picking them up from the class room.
I have know attempted to talk to Kya and see if he can take the responsibility of picking up Lucy and going to the bus together. We will be experimenting with this tomorrow. I dont understand why Lucy can't say something like .........hey teacher I know where the bus is can I go. She can be quite perplexing child.

It's About Time To Write

I spend everyday on the Internet reading blogs from others. I read stories that impress me so much and in many ways, keep my emotions in check. Hawaii is suppose to be a breath of fresh air and new start. Those who are close to us know that we have really struggled to try to keep afloat financially. We foreclosed on our two houses in Colorado this summer.......but it is far from over. The debts are too much for us to bear and we see nasty alternatives to rectify them. Where is the manual on life that you can open up and tells you what exactly you should do next so we dont have to make what seems like mistake number 100. I know our faith can help us, so right now I try to say as intune with my inner self to seek guidance.
This is where all those other blogs come in......my trials seem much less painful to those I have read about. A friend lost her mother (something too trerribly painful to imagine), another young mom lost two legs, an arm and went blind while giving birth, and another young mom my age is in critical condition suffering burns 80% of her body, and another young mother who surprisingly is pregnant with her fifth child despite the stress of money and the financial responsibility of having children (how do you grow to love something that you didnt expect to happen).
Perhaps that is the biggest lesson of all............how do we learn to love or at least deal with what we dont expect to happen.
Maybe its true what they say in the church, burdens are easier to deal with when you let the savior share them with you. His light and love has saved me out of some pretty dark moments in my life. So that is my pledge to myself in Hawaii. The new fresh start will have nothing to do with money (like I thought it would) rather it will be a much closer relationship with the Savior. Let the courts take what they want, they can never take the greatest gift of all which is my testimony and love for my savior, family and close friends.