Thank you

Im not sure how to respond back to comments when you all leave them. Although, I figured I would just write a note to everyone. It means so much to read comments that contain love and support. Thankyou. Today we had a pretty good day. As some of you know I use to have laser hair done....then the company I went to went bankrupt and all of our money was lost not to mention I was half done ;) So I bought a Tria, it came today. Jeremy is a great tech and it was so nice to get that going again. We
enjoyed staying around the house. Tomorrow I will have to post some pictures of our new edition. His name is "skipper", he is a very itty bitty long hair chihuahua. At 10 weeks old he weighs in at a whopping 1lb. All black except for the little white chest hair. Collai...has accepted him and is really cute with him. She might be trying to play a little too rough at times, but she makes up for that by cleaning his eyeballs (a very chihuahua affectinate gesture). Hes a really good puppy.....never has had a accident in the house, sleeps through the night, and seems to really love everyone. Like I said I will get some photos up tomorrow. In away he is theraputic for me, both Jeremy and I are suckers for dogs especially puppies. He brings me joy and right now his joy is greeted with open arms.
He went to sleep with Kya tonight, although to avoid any mishaps (falling from the bed, or being accidently rolled on top of) we took him out.
Right now he and Collai are both chewing on the same bone in their crate. toooo cute
good night

How to Welcome back an old Demon

I know that titles sounds sort of weird. Although that is what I feel like I'm going through. My demon in life is my anxiety and depression. I've had to start taking medication about 4 1/2 years ago to deal with it. In these same years I was almost certain we would not have more children so I wasn't worried about the medication or birth control. Although then we both decided that maybe now we are ready to have more. It felt good at the time.... I told my doctor, she removed my birth control and then told me that I must come off the meds. I was pretty confident that this wasn't going to be hard since I never took anything with the other two. Anyways, getting off these meds is easier said then done. I haven't given up yet, it's too early. Although I can feel my demon trying to regrow in my brain. Today I was soooo tired, even though I had plenty of sleep, irritable to the extreme, and I had my first crying spell in I don't even know how long ago since the last one. I don't want to feel this way at all and I wonder when and if it will end soon. Jeremy is so understanding and never walks away from me when I'm falling apart. He just wants me to be happy. I don't want to let him down in any way.I did end up taking some more medication today so that I would stop crying and panicking over nothing. I feel alot better as I lay in my bed ready to call it a day.
I don't express myself much in my blog, but I find it therapeutic. I have wonderful people in my life who love me and can help support me, for that I feel comfortable sharing these kind of embarrassing and humbling experience.
I love you all...good night

Catch Up Time

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Ok no slide show.....although I wanted to post some things that we have been up to over here in Hawaii. First, Kya and Lucy painting together. I love to listen to their conversations when they are working on something. I only wish Kya could be more creative.....he totally copied Lucy.....probably to show her that he could do a better job (unfortunately he would do that)

When any of you ever come to visit you can meet cute little creatures like this one. Oh and I'm not talking just about Lucy.....look closely you will see the humongous moth on the box in the garage




We finally got to go out to the Ko'Olina Lagoons. It was beautiful.......we got there kind of late in the afternoon so there was a little more wind and less heat then we would have liked. But it was relaxing, Lucy could not go in the water because she had too many scraps on her legs and the salt was making them sting. Then she was playing in the sand and my chair blew over and hit her in the head. Her and I always joke, that if there was an accident and Lucy was around it was bound to find her. I asked the kids each to tell me three things about the beach that they loved. They actually had many more then three things which made me happy that they loved to be at the water as much as we do. The water at this resort is so clear....really nice.

Valentine Day coupons

So I got a card from Jeremy with some coupons. They can be redeemed for different things. It was really cute......although he added a surprise coupon on the back .....
this is what it said

"I know we have 2 kids, one 5 and one 7, but you can redeem this for one more from heaven. We made two cute ones, Lucy and her brother, let's do this together and give birth to another"

I have been talking about having another one with Jeremy for about a year. But the timing has been a big factor for us. I think we are in a good place now, and he finially feels the same. Oh I thought the poem was awesome, he wrote that on the fly pretty good Jer.

Well a few things have to happen first but the ball will get rolling soon

lova ya all

Happy Valentine's Day

I thought it was about time to put together some pictures from the last little while. I really do love my family and friends that I have been given. Not only the ones that live under the same roof or in the same vicinity as me but the ones afar as well. I miss everyone, sometimes it's difficult when you want to share milestones especially from the children yet the one's you love most aren't close enough to be with you. I think that is why I love to blog every now and then. It's such a good time to catch up.......for some reason I don't talk to everyone as often as we use too. I think it's just busyness that stops that from happening. So this is me sharing and catching up with everyone!
My wonderful husband has started a fun tradition I like to call it. He takes the children every couple of months to the zoo to do volunteer work. After they are done with their service they get to enjoy the zoo. This month they picked up garbage that was on the outside of the zoo perimeter. They really loved going and are starting to understand the difference their actions can make.
I have been thinking alot about my children lately. I love them tremdously even though I can't always figure out what planet they are on. They make me laugh and bring so much joy and certainly anything but boredom to our household. They love Jesus and have really embrassed him and the teachings. For instance Kya praying the other night for his teacher to get her voice back so she can talk again, and praying the little boy next door might find his bike that was stolen. It makes me smile inside knowing these prayers are his own and come from his heart. Lucy is growing in her own way as well. She knows I would like to have another baby, and tells me that only Jesus can bring me another baby but since I have her still then it won't happen.
Well I think this turned more into a "here's what's on my mind today" then a time table about what's been going on.
Enjoy the slide show. we love you all!

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A Time For Change

Well there is always that time I think every girl feels it is time to change the "do". It didn't exactly turn out what I had in mind, although it's done. I was just going to let it grow long while we were here in Hawaii....but it just sometimes takes way too long to do. So I went and had 5-6" cut off. The funny part is only one person has noticed besides Jeremy and the kids. (thanks Briana)
Makes me wonder if cutting it was the wrong thing to do. But whats done is done now. Tell me what you think! OH but i have exciting news, the same day my hair was cut off I was able to buy a size 8 jeans. That was a nice feeling. Maybe the walking is paying off. Even Collai has benefited from all the walks.

Lovely frames

Here are those pictures just for you mom.